Thank you <3 xx
I wish I was honestly happy with my life, i absolutely hate myself and I-I try & be positive .. I just can’t, something always get me down and it could be anything so little or something massive to me and not anyone else, and people would think i’m crazy to get upset about certain things but I can’t help it what so ever and then someone usually ends up hating me because I’m an emotional person and I take things personally.. but that’s who I am and no one respects that’s the way I am. I constantly worry about things every day and I fucking hate it.. I hate being this way, do you think I want to cry myself to sleep most nights/ self-harm etc and people will always think I’m doing it for attention but I’m not. My boyfriend admitted to me last night that his terribly worried about me because i’m getting worse and his mother is even worried about me. I cried at the youth center last Friday to my old youth worker and my best friend and that was so embarrassing because it was during a Open Mic Night where people saw me crying but I was sorta hidden away. Ugh I just idk what to do anymore. I like to think some days I’m getting better but then I go down hill 10 minutes later.. i-i dont know.
Soz, but I needed to write this out before it ate me away.